Mercy, We need You

“If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”- 1 John 1:8-9

What a passage! The religiosity and moralistic part of me is called out and convicted here, because if we are truly honest a lot of the time we distract ourselves from our own sin by looking at the sin in others and seeing ourselves as clean. But realistically we too are so full of sin. I have been really challenged this week to humbly read God’s word, allowing myself to be convicted by what it says and I pray that you too will have this conviction as you read the verses above.

But on to the topic of mercy, I think these verses perfectly encapsulate just how great God’s mercy is for us. Not only does it tell us of God’s merciful character, but encourages us to confess our sinful nature knowing that with a repenting heart we will be made clean. By truly acknowledging the depth of our brokenness the fullness of God’s mercy is revealed to us.

The thing is we will never get everything right, as Paul writes we “all fall short of the glory of God”, therefore we are always in desperate need of His mercy. Despite the amount of times we run the opposite direction, when we return with a humble heart asking for forgiveness he mercifully embraces us. He never gets fed up or says “do I really have to give you more mercy”, instead in his immeasurable love and generosity he forgives us time and time again. However, this doesn’t give us permission to do whatever we want, but allows us to rest in the knowledge that no matter how many times we mess up “nothing can ever separate us from God’s love” (Romans 8:38) because of God’s mercy.

In light of this I challenge you to take some time this week to prayerfully examine your heart,and to acknowledge your brokenness. However doing so in the knowledge that if you repent on this you will be covered in His mercy.  Remember that the Father doesn’t see us as objects of condemnation, but of praise as Paul tells the Romans in chapter 2:29, ” a person’s praise is not from other people, but from God.” that is the amazing, intangible, fullness of his mercy.

His Grace covers you. 

Hey, you. 

I think that often we remember parts of our past which are broken. The parts which aren’t particularly positive memories and the chapters that aren’t really nice to think of. I know that a lot of us have broken pasts, many of us are going through a patch which is so cracked and so broken that it is so hard to even piece together a few steps. Whether the brokenness is right now, in the past or in the future, it’s relevant to us all.

If I’m being honest, sometimes I think things like why did God save me when I did this and why does He love me when I do this and why did He choose me and why… and the list goes on and the whys get longer.

I’m continuously baffled by the love and mercy God has for us, even when we still sin, we still do bad things, we don’t do as much for Him as we could and should. I am still bewildered at the fact that He loves so deeply even when He knows the deepest and darkest low in our life.

I am still perplexed that He forgives the humanly unforgivable. He forgives the worst sin, He forgives the deepest hate, He even forgives us for the devastating and disastrous past we’ve lived.  But He does. He really does. It is amazing and it’s incredible and it’s kind of unbelievable, but it is so true and so real. And so is His Grace.

By His grace. Our pasts are forgiven. The addictions, the sorrow, the hate, the brokenness. It’s all forgiven. We receive the most grace in the brokenness. He seeks us in the brokenness. I was watching a video a while ago  and it says “once we experience Gods’ love, our broken past is nothing but the proof of gods grace.” How amazing is that?

God sees you. He sees the loving you. The you who texts that person that looked a bit sad, the you who buys a coffee to a stranger, the one who lives for Him and shows His love. When looking at you, He doesn’t look at you and be like “nope I can’t answer that prayer, you done that bad thing last year.” He doesn’t say “no I’ll pass this time because she didn’t give that guy on the side of the street any spare change.” He also doesn’t look at you and say “no i can’t forgive them because their past is too dark.”  He doesn’t see your past. He doesn’t look at your past or the wrongs in your life. He has those covered. He doesn’t leave us in that brokenness. All by grace. Forgive yourself because His grace has already covered you in mercy and love.  He says “yes, I love you and I forgive you” and continues to say it, even after the 13th time, even after every single time.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

– 2 Corinthians 12:9

Lots of love, from all of us at She Spreads Light. X 

Brokenness Is Not The Promise

Light fades, and at the very end of the day all your little pieces are laying on the ground. Your broken and its hard to imagine being any other way. Your heart physical hearts and you wish you could take it out and give it a good stretch – for just, maybe then, brokenness wouldn’t be what you would come home to at night. Your brains a muddle. You can’t really organise thoughts in your head and that one thought runs around your brain like a never ending spinning top.

Sometimes we feel broken. Sometimes in a good way – we are broken for a people, for an issue, we are broken because of compassion. But sometimes we feel broken because of a huge altering ‘thingy magig’ in our life that we can’t name. Due  to circumstances that are outside of our control. We feel like a tiny chick who feels forgotten, lonely and like the nest has been pushed out beneath us. That they have been told to fly LONG before they ever felt ready.

Joshua spoke to me in a time of brokenness. So today I hope it speaks to the core of your brokenness, that it wraps around he roots and starts to break them down – but above all else, I hope Joshua makes you realise that brokenness for a season may be what you hold. But that brokenness is not Gods promise over your life. That for a season you will need to be broken – but not to camp in that hallway. To rest. But then to knock on the door of opportunity.

“Moses my servant is dead. Now therefore arise, go over this Jordan, you and all this people, into the land that I am giving to them, to the people of Israel.  Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given to you, just as I promised to Moses.”

– Joshua 1 v 2&3

Joshua must have been broken. In the midst of his brokenness God reminded him of the promises over his life. That he was called to first love God and serve him only – but practically he was called to lead the Israelites to the land they had been waiting for, for over 400 years. In times of brokenness get around people who will sit with you in the darkness, walk with you in the rain but who are wise enough to discern the right time to remind you of the promises God has spoken over you.

Moreover, I have heard the groaning of the people of Israel whom the Egyptians hold as slaves, and I have remembered my covenant. Say therefore to the people of Israel, ‘I am the Lord, and I will bring you out from under the burdens of the Egyptians, and I will deliver you from slavery to them, and I will redeem you with an outstretched arm and with great acts of judgment. I will take you to be my people, and I will be your God, and you shall know that I am the Lord your God, who has brought you out from under the burdens of the Egyptians. I will bring you into the land that I swore to give to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob. I will give it to you for a possession. I am the Lord.’

– Exodus 6 v 5-8

The promise to Joshua was a generational promise. It was a promise passed from Abraham to Isaac to Jacob to Moses and now to Joshua. Joshua probably grew up with the promises. He knew all about the promise. However despite his brokenness he was willing to follow Gods promises to the end of the earth – whenever they were called to come to pass. Joshua took his eyes of his brokenness and set them on Jesus’. He didn’t pretend he wasn’t broken.

Just as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you or forsake you. Be strong and courageous, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them.’ – Joshua 1 v 5&6

God knew he was broken. He knew that the very task that Joshua was called to fulfill was too much for him. However God so intimately designing each detail of us, knew that Joshua at his time needed to be strong and courageous. Joshua knew that the one who reigned within him was greater than anything in the world. Joshua set his eyes on Jesus. He walked a long the path of life following every imprint of the father’s steps. He allowed himself to be broken but knew that resting in Gods presence would always be his greatest support through any brokenness.

Today know it is ok to be broken. Know that there will be seasons where you will camp in the brokenness. Yet also know to be supported in your brokenness – to get around people who will call out the promises on your life. Lastly know God knows you so intimately – that He is the very one who ‘binds up the broken hearted’. He knows your name, He knows your pain, He see’s you – He will fulfill His promises to you. Rest in that.


All our love x

Perspectives: Christmas

Christmas is coming! A time of great joy where we remember the birth of a baby born to die so that we could have life. We celebrate with carols, presents and of course lots of food! For so many Christmas is the most anticipated time of the year and brings them so much joy. However for others this is not a case.

Christmas is a time when pain can be heightened, grief stings a little more, and anxiety is increased with business of the season. I don’t want to glorify these parts of Christmas, but simply address them.

For those of you who experience these things at Christmas, I pray that you will know God’s peace which surpasses all understanding. In Isaiah 54:10 it says” Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you.”

Maybe you have lost someone dear to you and Christmas without them seems and is a very hard prospect, or maybe the thought of socialising with lots of people and an endless shopping list enhances your anxiety, whatever it is, know that you are strong. I am in no way saying that there is a quick fix, because there isn’t, but lean on Christ, He is with you ready to bring comfort to your weary heart.

I encourage you to join me in praying for people who find Christmas hard. For those who; will have an empty chair round their table, are celebrating in a foreign land because they’re home has been obliterated by war, are fighting a battle with physical or mental health.

I realise this blog may have left you with a burdened heart, and this is a hard topic, but one which I think is so important to address. Prayer is so powerful and I really encourage all who read this to pray with me, because it makes a difference. Also, remember that among the pain and brokenness there is a light which the darkness can never extinguish. Ultimately this is what we celebrate at Christmas, the light that came into the world and became human so that darkness, grief, pain, anxiety, fear, depression etc. will NEVER win.

I hope you all have a blessed Christmas celebrating Jesus and all that He has done for us.