I am Holy 

 A couple of months ago we got the privilege to partner with IJM and Exodus (check them out! – they are both transforming the landscape of what it looks like to humbly live with the heart of God). We got to deliver a prayer night for young people here and abroad. We got the joy of partnering with a God who loves to hear our voice. He loves to hear our hearts cry. 

The station I had the privilege of leading was all about understanding that God loves us so much as who we are. And we have the joy of honouring our bodies and lives to honour Him. 

It was a month later I got the privilege of understanding what this truly meant to me. Here’s my story of how that night impacted my story.  

We can’t add to His blood. His blood is enough. Simple really but in practice oh how complicated my heart and mind makes it. At the very start of summer I met up with one of my best friends from school. She told me that when describing me the other girl in our trio gad described me as holy. 

I’d love to say my into reaction was incredible. That I was chuffed. I wasn’t. I didn’t understand. You see I took holy as religious. Which was probably how it was intended. But God in that sweet moment was trying to whisper something into my heart that I had been ‘too busy’ to listen. 

He was telling me that I was His. That I was holy, cleansed and loved. He was reminding me that the prayer that my heart prays to be of total service to Him was awnsered. He was letting me know that my heart was wholly devoured to Him at that moment. He was telling me I was anointed for service. 

And I in that moment rejected the very thing I had wanted to hear Him say. But God in all His grace and beauty told me anyway. He then had the patience to let me figure out exactly what He wanted me to know. 

I thank God because He uses people from all walks of life to interject in your story. For I was going down a path it thinking I was unworthy for use, without purpose. And that is the greatest lie I could have ever been telling myself. 

So with that I tell you – you have something to bring to the table. You are made worthy through His name. Sometimes all you need is a backwards compliment. 

All my love, Shannon x

Wonder

I do’nt know about you but the last few weeks have placed quite a burden on my heart, I have become so much more aware of the hurt and the brokenness of the world as it occurs closer to home; with the attacks in Manchester and London as well as with our brothers and sisters facing persecution in the Middle of the East. These are hard times but times that require us to get on our knees and let our hearts break for the things that break His as we pray for restoration and healing, for the coming of His Kingdom.

However, amidst these terrors God makes us aware of His presence and the joy that comes from knowing that in the darkness His light shines even brighter and won’t be extinguished. He challenges us to look at things from a different perspective.

Recently I have been obsessed with Hillsong United’s latest song “Wonder.” This song explains the wonder we experience as we choose to share God’s way of seeing the world, and really reminded me to be joyful in times of trial, to live in constant wonder of Him despite the brokenness and suffering of the world.

The chorus declares “I see the world in light, I see the world in wonder, I see the world in life, Bursting in living colour, I see the world your way, And I’m walking in the light.” Does this mean we see through rose tinted glasses? Not at all, but rather we have a hope that although we see the reality of sin and suffering we can see the light and aim to adopt God’s perspective.

I was really struck by the lines “You’re the wonder in the wild. Turning wilderness to wonder.” Thinking about them I challenged myself to look at the personal wilderness that I sometimes walk through and reflected on how God can turn that wilderness into wonder. For instance, when I come out of a season in the wilderness I can look back in wonder at what God has delivered me from.

But not only is God’s wonder revealed when we leave our wilderness, but its right there with us in the midst of our pain. This time last week I watched Ariana Grande’s One Love Manchester concert and was reduced to tears as I watched in wonder at the unity and compassion shown in the midst of so much suffering. I truly believe that in the pain of the aftermath of that horrendous attack God’s wonder was revealed, does that make it all ok? No but it instils a hope within us, it ignites a light to overcome the darkness, a wonder in what God can do in the midst of suffering.

So I’m aware that this month She Spreads Light have been focusing on the theme of Honour. This post has not specifically touched on this, but I felt that God placed this message on my heart to share with you all. I encourage you however to really think about your perspective , have you chosen to see the world through the eyes of God? It is such an HONOUR (I knew I’d get it in somewhere) that God invites us to share in His wonder, to see things the way He does, so why wouldn’t we?

Love Always. 

Rachel x

Do You Care?

Today’s a different kind of blog post. Its not a ‘i tell you how to interpret these things’ or your ‘5 minute life booster’. It’s a ‘lets be real, pull up a chair and join the party’ kind of post.

Today we are going to examine our hearts, we are going to look to the deepest darkest parts and decide if they really are as light filled by Jesus as the possibly could be.

Today if your not ready to be real push through. Be honest with yourself. Its the only way to move forward. lets get started.

In Nehemiah 5, Nehemiah has found himself in an outcry of poverty, oppression and pain. He has found himself in a world just like ours that is so far away from what God wanted for us. The first question I want to ask you just like I believe Nehemiah had to ask himself is – Does the outcry of poverty make you angry? When was the last time you paid £5 for a sandwich which with that money could have fed one child for a month in a foreign country. When was the last time you wasted money on things you truly didn’t need because you WANTED it. But better still when was the last time you felt convicted about it? Nehemiah wept and mourned for his country, he didn’t just pray and say its ok, chill out… life is under control, because he knew his identity and calling as a man of God was to do something, to shift something, to be obedient to what God wanted to do. 

Don’t get me wrong its not bad to want nice things, its not harmful to want to wear nice clothes but its when you buy your third pair of shoes in six months when truly you know those coral heels will only be worn once or twice. You with me? I really believe God is calling us to wake up and see who and what is actually around us. We are not called to be of this world. Empty your shopping bag and invest in someones eternity – take them for lunch, buy them a notebook, take them skydiving for all I know. But you sitting on the internet with River Island open for 2 hours is not beneficial. And you know I’m right.

Lets be real here. Ask yourself will you truly do what God wants whatever the cost? Will you fix,pay,and invest in someone else’s mess or will you leave them to figure it out on their own? Will you sacrifice? Will you fulfil your promises? and indeed the promises of God. When was the last time you did these things? Will you walk in knowing that you can do immeasurably more than you could imagine because of who lives inside you? Will you walk knowing that our God; is a God who jumps straight into mess, who eats with the worst, who walks with the poor, who humbly serves the ignorant and arrogant. Will you walk like him? Our God is a God who ultimately laid down his life for us. Will you walk knowing that is your calling and greater still believe and act like it truly is? Or will you walk believing this but having a level of self importance that means that truly walking like Jesus is left for the missionary, pastors, teachers and prophets? Will you throw up your hands and say I’m all for living for Jesus when I get the squishy feelings or will you be a faithful follower who follows no matter the feelings. I know which one God longs for you to be. 

Do you operate differently to the people around you because of the love of God in your life? Do you speak differently, act differently and treat others differently or do you simply blend into the crowd? Don’t waste your opportunity, please. Do you know that your reward truly comes from heaven and that you may not get rewarded on earth? Do you trust who God says that he is and who he has called you to be. Do you trust his provision? Do you remember that your reward is from God and not from people – in all you do?

Examine your heart. Be refreshed by knowing no one gets it right all the time. Don’t strive just obey. Listen to the gentle calling and he will take you all the way.

Love x